thats the way to go, wait to see my cards.

Haven't been blogging for awhile. ok, its only 3 days or so, but 3 meaningful days mean lotsa.

Monday was spent setting the direction for my holiday.And my targeted gpa? 3.73. heh. oh and yes it was my bdae, which outside of my family, only ianny and miss notmyfault remembered. geez. Shoulda have replied at least some of those 'fill in your birthdates for my book' emails.

Tuesday had remedial and after 2 days of remedial, all the more i'm thinking the plans not very achievable. but hey, even 3.6 'd be a considerable jump from 3.33! Anyways tues remedial was nicey very little ppl and we could ask freely. then me ian jia en went for lunch then me and jia en went gym and saw chinks and kennedy. Aiyoyo. i can't even handle 20kg of bench press now. sheesh but its alright no sweat, i'll catch up soon enough.

Then went to swa at 3 to attend ZhaoBin's lesson. Saw Yang Laoshi there and he was asking abt Benjamin goh , commenting how much he improved and then i went(in mandarin) "He went to japan for exchange programme". Then Yang went," oh, that Jiahong also pretty strong". So i was like, um.... "He went to London for Learning Journey". Finally Yang went," 那你们还省下谁？"

Good question. He pointed out that Dunman High players are pretty strong and could potentially snatch 2nd place in open division away from us.Which is true, cuz they had this gal i played with and nearly lost last yr. But still i just smiled. Cuz i won't show my cards just yet.

I'm willing to risk losing 2nd position. Junyu hasn't played for awhile but i don't believe all his work has gone down the drain. Viet is well, vietnamese and can't understand what Kang teaches, but his passion and effort is admirable. I mean, if i didn't understand chinese, i doubt i would have placed as much effort into it as he has.

Then we have the precocious sec1s playing in Open Division(rather than sec1 &2). Baptism of fire, no doubt, but they'll surprise a few unsuspecting souls.

Anyway i played with Zhao Bin, this p4 kid under Phillip. And i lost. The most surprising thing is, thats not at all surprising, cuz the kid's the real deal man.

Went home rather late and tried to sleep early but couldn't quite adjust. so slept late and woke late again today.

Today's remedial was noisier with more ppl, and i found the stuff more challenging as well. sheesh. Oh yeah and Ian revealed smth to me abt myself which i shan't reveal fully in order to protect his precious 'social status'. Alright alright, i 'll think over what you said. I know honesty(or bluntness, depends on how u view it) comes with a hefty price tag, as you've realised after going home alone today with no one to lunch with =) . But i doubt i'll ditch it. The 'interrupting others' part makes sense though, i'll watch myself in the future.

Oh yeah talking abt 'home alone', i'm gonna be home alone next wed-sun!!!! My parents are going korea, but i'd rather stay home, mug, weiqi, gym. these 3 will be the priority for week 2, in that order. Week1 is focused on weiqi since its qiuping week. After that, see how.

After lesson today took train with ZB and his daddy and a lady sitting besides us talked to us. She was saying how much i sounded as if i was from china!! And u know, the usual stuff adults (anxious mothers especially) talk to ri boys. Ask how we study, of cuz. And she thought ZB was my lil bro. lol. Younger brother owning his elder brother of 6yrs. yikes.

Alright, i really do think, schwork-weiqi-gym is the way to go. SHould socialise more of cuz, but it can be done in the process of the latter 2. Alright thats about all for now, i'm off to sleep, and tmrw's more weiqi-weiqi-weiqi-. yayeee.

A better Man

wow, i must have done more sihuoti over the past 3 days than i've done all year. Wheee.

Saturday had to go back to sch for Founders Day. Geez, just last year it was held in the Albert Hong Hall, man, just last year the AHH was still there. How time flies.

After that me ian bp went to Thai Express to eat. yummy ain't too bad. Geez guess what Ian said!! smth like, "must thank us for saving you from being friendless.." -----> =_=""

Friendless?

hmmm.

I've all along appreciated my own personal space. Eating alone is nothing uncommon to me, right down from primary one. Friends? I used to have that 'Best Friend' kinda thingo. Primary 1 was a certain Daniel, who won't be easy to track since i forgot his surname. Primary 2 was a Ryan Chia. Primary 3 was Jonathan James Ng(its a mouthful, just call him Ng) and primary 4 was Marcus chew. And then on its more of a bunch of frens. like zhiyang and shane for p5 &6 then sec 1 &2 its hongjie, fahd, rahul etc haha come to think of it my sec 1&2 class was really great. jmx and mingquan were excellent in chair and vice positions. Oh my. Not that it was very well disciplined, but hey i liked it.

sheesh i'm being so narrative (tang will say, lit don't narrate so much, must have points!). Ok so anyway this yr class aint too bad either. HZ is a gd fren. Zijian has excellent drive and its always nice to listen to his ideas, i mean, his thinking is unique, though of cuz there'll be times where i disagree with them. Joshua heng too, my lab partner, his way of talking, its quite different from the rest, perhaps cuz he has lived in so many other countries before.

But still, generally there isn't the feeling of close frenship. And you don't always have to be in same class to be close fren's there just needs to be a bond. Like me and ben, we both love weiqi. And huixiang aaron hj jw... we all didnt go far in bball.

hmmm. haven't came to anything substanstial, have i? nvm then.

Anyway it was a good statement to make. I always felt that holidays were good time to plot the path forward and start working on your goal to get the momentum going, and of cuz before that you'll have to reflect on the past. Its not as if my bad grades, poor skin, non-existent abs and not-as-good-as-it-should-be weiqi has not gave me anything to think about. heh. Plenty to ponder, and i better emerge, a better man.

FOCUS

yeah man, thats the keyword. FOCUS.

Had weiqi after sch again. oh wait lemme talk abit about sch. Today we had this "Personal Grooming". I was like, kinda late right? they taught waxing hair, which this year i had to pester Ianny for all his info and now he says "we're losing you(me) to a poser" haha means i'm doing it better than him! yayness man.

Oh ya recess time played soccer with Hongjie and the 4G guys, with plenty from 2C. oh my i miss the old days man. Oh which reminds me, hongjie we haven't went for bball training for quite awhile. quite.

Anyway back to weiqi, philip gave his assessment and i think its true, i'm hardly in tournament condition now, though my basics aint bad. My games are mostly the same story, big lead out of the opening, then BLAM!!! blunder.

Anyway lets focus on the positives. So here's he's prescription:

SI HUO TI!!! what else hahahaha. So i can rebuild my focus. yeah i totally agree. its not just weiqi, many subjects, i can't really focus. maybe its the lack of sleep, which i 'll correct anyway in the hols. My parents wanna go korea for 5 day tour but nah, i'm gonna be home alone, cuz my time is more precious. Next wk will be like 1.5hours of sihuo, games,another 1.5hour of sihuo DAILY. Yay i'll be whipped into shape.

So yes thats my priority for weeek 1. Of cuz i'll put time into studies, talking to phillip abt universities and all, really, i shouldn't be scoring so low grades, or else in the future i'll regret it.

So ok! thats the plan. just see it through man.

now time so for some pics

Chinese on monday night wasn't that bad... cuz my chinese's pro =D no lah, the paper was easy.
Ytd afternoon went gym with greg. his bicep's so well cut, but geez he gotta add some mass man, Mr. Rugger lol.But then again, we're both like, far far away from Chinks. nvmnvm holidays we'll catch up. went to collect new specs as well.
At night went home and rushed weiqi. I feel guilty lah, learning from philip is really good, i mean, theres the sihuo and of cuz best of all theres the game reviews, + his research. I mean, its probably even better than my training time in Beijing, if i make the best of it. But i'm not, so i really oughta pull up my socks.
Oh yeah today iwas kinda tired but i came sch anyway, got xls lesson and tingyu's last lesson. He's going for World Amateur Go Championship soon, Gambate!!!
Anyway for what happened today in sch, lemme use PICTURES!!! for once =)

See Ian must LOVE THIS PRESENT OF MINE!! I bought him a PLANE u see!!!

And see my Birthday wishes to him. bleah. and he did erase 'em.... -.O

See my specs.... pro bah! oh yeah i still look fierce fierce sia... oh wait when i went to cut hair and came back to take pics i smiled for the pics... 'll upload it along with rally pics when i've got more time...

And now for the most interesting pic today........

hahahaha.

okie dookie.

Saw my APR today. not too good. "ll have to set out a list of targets for this june. Sometime soon. Of cuz, sch work ,weiqi, gym are gonna figure in it.

Now, for the last 2 days of sch....

It is better to crash and burn than to not do anything

AGREE?

hell yeah.

Yesterday was one of those there where i did nothing. ok wait, i did pon my last tuition of the semester, but that hardly counts as doing anything, since actually it means staying at home and doing nothing. Partly cause my stomach is kind of screwed up. Woke up a 3am to eat, feeling hungry and weird weird times, must be saturday open house ate too late. bleah. And sunday was spent watching tapes of shows i missed like Wisely etc then at night there was SI. Then went to do sihuoti and kinda got stuck on one question for a 'nong nong' time then i asked philip and turned out it was the hint that was wrong, it was directed at the wrong question -.-

Oh yeah and today i improved!! i woke at 11 instead of 12. hahaha. Haiz my maths challenge was terrible lah. geez i wonder how ppl manage to do it lor. -.-"" and then theres chinese hw... omg. got 1 mock paper, 1 yingyongwen, 1changwensuo duan 1 lijiewenda. aiyoyoyo. i know today is off day lah, but... ok ok its my fault lah. See, given on thurs/fri right, just last thurs do lijie, fri and sat do mock paper, sun do suo duan then today do yingyongwen then its like, 1 a day, manageable. So its the discipline i suppose.

Which also means, given the work i have left, i should go clear 'em up instead of sitting in front of the com and seeing this superband of girls who can dance but not sing -.-'"

okae, time to go crash and burn!!! byeee

"Ae fond kiss and we sever"

"Ae fond kiss and we sever"- thats like what i'd say come 4 months time, when Mr. Prometheum Day comes knocking, that is, when its time to hand over leadership, for me, its the chess club post i'd have to pass on.

But for now, "I'm loving it!" is more appropriate.

Yesterday was GE open house and it was a fun day. Not that there were no slip ups. There was. To begin with, i forgot to inform Mark and the ichess ppl of the change in time, causing them to come 1hour earlier, buts not too bad, cuz they used to time to set up the icchess part of our notice board. The place overall was well set up! yaye. i took one photo, gonna upload 'em all together when i've got the time.

The p6s response wasn't ideal. But we still did what we can. When no one wanted to play us nor attempt solving our puzzles, we switched to playing games among ourselves, a la Exhibition Game style, so that some P6s would watch and then we can ask 'em if they want a game =) Which didn't exactly work wonders either, but hey, its better then us sitting there and staring into blank space.

Yiheng said if NYPS wins Shoutan cup again, they'll get to keep it, so we were deciding whether to go there or not.We had enough ppl behind to man the two boards, but then Ben and Jiahong had to leave early, so i got Roger to come back to weiqi for the time being. By the time i decided it was like, 3, and when we arrived the whole thingo was over, and they were preparing for prize presentation o.O . Saw jojo, but there was no sign of wl wc nor serene, geez ppl do move on with other things in life fast. Next time i go back swa after the overall Open House, i'll recall 2yrs ago when after my first open house, i went to swa with junyu and saw jojo and co. Now its like... 人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。sigh. Oh ya saw Alison as well, who apparently was trying to hide her identity cuz i called her there and she pressed away the phone lol. then i asked jojo and then when pointed out, she like sneaked away... Hahaha. it kind of reminds me of 2yrs ago when jojo came up and ask me if i'm the 'hmph' in KGS and i was like, 'yeah', then shyly slithered off to the sound of their giggle. Now its others who's running away from me. Can this be considered progress? =)

So anyway with nothing much left to do, we went to talk to the P6s and other prize winners, basically urging them to come ri ("RI DOES have a weiqi club!!!!). Will it come to anything? I'm not sure, but at least i've done something towards furthering my club's cause.

Went back to RI after that for debrief and omg yiheng left his hp in the taxi! but we kept our cool, called the driver (who had by then picked up another passenger). Yiheng had to wait, but got his hp back eventually :)

We went for movie after that, Mark, Roger, Aaron Tan, Junyu and myself, and later aaron chenz joined us. We planned to watch MI3 but then there was only 3 tickets left so we changed plan and watched Over the Hedge instead. we couldnt reached chenz so we got the ticket for him anyway but when he came he was like, watch Over the Hedge??? =.="" lol. But the movie itself was funny lah. The plot wasn't anything out of the ordinary but then it was funny.

Couldn't quite sleep last night, maybe too high or what. oh yeah was thinking abt some time back, maybe sec 1 or 2 when we went back nyps to Mrs Tham's class and mrs tham was like asking us to advertise our school to these kids. So i was like thinking of what i'd say if i had the chance again. Gonna be considerably different from what i said in the past. Anyway, all these 'nightdreaming' resulted in me waking at 12 today. oh yeah owl was mentioned in the newspaper! lol.

Ok today's tuition is the last one before the tuition center takes a 1 month break. FINALLY! =)

Back to Go

okie 4 more sch days to holiday!!!yaye. ok i'm feeling pretty good now, had weiqi for most of today. ytd had lesson from 3 to 8 lol first watch tingyu's lesson then my turn. Wah 1 impt conclusion: my sihuo very weak, which is what i'm practising now although only till question 28 lol. Today training also do sihuo, i think its a rather good way to train. Its FUN!! oh my. startling discovery. Like. The Joy of Life-and-Death Problems (a la 'The Joy Of Mathematics'). Yaye. okie dookie for the uninitiated doing these calculating problems is one of the basics of weiqi, which is also the missing link amongst my arsenal of skills, of which the best is the opening. So i often take the lead, and pray that i don't squander it at the end ^^. Oh yiheng is making good progress with his sihuo as well, oh my i think its good, pushes me to improve myself, so during training time i can get to the answers faster. Those pesky 2 stars question, some i can't handle!haha maybe this 1-day training did me some good, finally won xudong today, haven't done that in a loooong while o.O

oh yeah if i end my post here ppl like dawnie won't be able to comment. oh wait she hasn't been doing that, tsky tsky. and ppl like ian won't be able to reply on his blog (ya... rite. just trying to advertise his blog to me lah. Ok but i'll be kind. PEEPS!!! IAN YAP HAS RESTARTED HIS BLOGGING !!!HAIL THE MR. NEARLY-4.0-FOR-ENGLISH!!!!!)

Chinese has sooooo much hw. and monday is like 1 day holi lor. and i gotta go get my top part of retainers back. i actually somehow managed to snap its wire. o.O then wanted to see skin doc as well. oh geez, lucky mr tutor is helping me catch up my maths tmrw and help with performance task. Then can go open house in peace. yaye.

Can't quite attract many weiqi bright sparks tmrw,since its the p6s Shoutan tmrw. hey but i'm glad so many ppl willing to come tmrw when i said it wasn't compulsory lol. props to peepz like jiwei and junyu yaye. So i'm glad lah. oh ya but shoutan! ugh i've never played in primary sch inter sch tourney before so wanted go look see.... but nvm lah. next yr then go lor... Alison say will lay red carpet for me leh...(or at least, i made her say she'll :) )

OK! i think by sun i can go back gym, my throat is nearly 100%. Alison was like asking, are u good in sports? thx to my napfa yay i feel good about my atheletic side, but must upkeep lah, otherwise next time go gym chinks will pwn me... not like he didn't last time, but not sure how much my own training helped me to catch up. we'll see.

ookie dookie. Time to sleep, get 'nuff rest and i'll be fine. yaye.

Still ill

sleep sleep sleep. And then go for haircut, buy bag & specs, and then its sleep sleep sleep again. ohmy.

Rightfully there shouldn't be much to blog about, except that ALL MY EMOTICONS DISAPPEARED!!! Ugh. No idea why, but nvm lah, slowly build up again.

Hz told me about my english and chem marks. Both are bad. Very bad actually, but whatever lah. I'm more concerned about my cousin. He's only p1, and he's got like so many problems. I don't know how to put it through, but then like, merely passing all your subjects at p1 can hardly be considered a good sign. Had a long talk with my mom about him, shes worried about her sis losing control and all. Sigh. Divorced parents is fine, but not when the one in custody is too high-strung. ugh.

Anyway on the flip side i feel more matured. like i discuss the problem and look back at my short 15 soon to be 16 years and i must have grown, even if its just a tweeny weeny bit. Ok then, take this little positive bit and go to sleep. again. nitez

good news from afar

I'm down with a viral throat infection... its gonna be 2 days of MC. Good news from Hz though, somehow my bio got a 4.0, like much of the rest of the class. Aiyoh, GPA wise, bio 'd be a great subject choice. geez but i'm rather sure i studied maths more than bio, yet the difference is so big. 49/60 as opposed to 33/60. oh well as cel said, life isn't fair. happy retesting, cel!

Oh yeah and Hz got 58/60 for a total of 89% for SA1... omg... gogogo, beat Zenn!

My ss got 21/25 for ct, not sure if its enough for a 4.0 overall. Anyhow i'm pleased, since SS is one of the few subjects i take real interest in.

Really i need more sleep. Falling sick is bad, luckily napfa is like over and so are the exams, and i can more or less prep open house this sat from home. haha but being on the phone till 3 is fun!! just gotta strike a balance though. i guess gym's out till like this sunday, and then i must really plan properly my gym and exercises, feeling the flab again o.O

yayness

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually, nothing to yay about.

i did wake early, but my throat was still too sore for me to gym.

I did study for ting xie, but it was not tested.

I did plan for open house, but we're not allowed to put anime characters up.

oh geez. look on the bright side.

i did not go to gym, but i'm still fit and strong and can go tmrw. 27pts this year, 30 the next!

i did not have tingxie, but at least i studied those words.

We're not allowed to put anime characters up, but we've got our super dooper Hall Of Fame!!! Props to junren for thinking of the idea and mark for making the actual scroll.

yayness. It'll only get better.

Back to the drawing board

owwwww my throat still hurts. So i skipped gym again. Yikes and i lost 2 games on kgs... haiz always build up a lead, and then lose it in middlegame. And then the Open House peepz called and said, get ready the list of ppl manning the booth by tmrw, so was like, zoom into action!

Called ppl up, settled the team for Qiuping as well, no choice we'll be pulling sec 1s into Open Group but its good lah for them. Yiheng's pretty enthu as well, yay i train this group well and i'll, in the words of the great Andrew Lim, "leave a legacy"!!!! ~yayness~

if my throat holds up i'll go gym tmrw. but >< so many thingos to do. Learn tingxie for tmrw, and then the maths PT... aiyah maths PT diao.. not easy.

heh. I don't think i'll do well for the cts. And my post-ct days are pretty much wasted as well.

Back to the drawing board, it seems.

out of sorts

Today's vesak, and i woke so late. Mum was really rushing us cuz she booked a table at some vegetarian restaurant, but end up when we went temple to pray the abbot was sick so he couldn't see us so we went to the restaurant just nice instead. But ewwww the service was so bad! makes no difference whether we reserved seats or not ,they actually made us share table! >< and oh ya i realised, i really can't do with meat. Yummy.

I'm so gonna sleep earlier tonight, go gym tmrw and plan stuff. Got sooo much to do, though now its mostly cca and misc stuff rather than schwork, but its always liddat, out of sorts after the hard-mugging exams days. I think i should let maths go. Like, no point harping on it.Take things as it comes, i guess.

Still feeling out of sorts. Aiyo. Any anti-out-of-sorts-pill? nvmnvm, gymming cures everythingo. ~yayness~

not very the good, but not very the bad

lol chatted till morning on wednesday and woke at like 12+ then afternoon napped again. So this morn woke up early and went to play water margins. Geez i keep dying and my com keeps overheating, i think something's wrong with it.

Todays got back maths... 33/60. Oh my . .. like what. Tues still said what harvard.. hahaha no must believe myself, can make it one. Just mug, mug , mug hehehe yeah lah but a 4.0 is definitely out. Oh yeah chinese never give back results, but it was fun though... tph got ask to discuss elections and basically myself and walter spoke most. Lol. Not like we didn't discuss much on rally day, but today translating it all to chinese was cute =p

Today finally had weiqi lesson again after so long... watched tingyu's lesson before mine. Haha compared to them, the moves i suggested in discussions, as xls said, was abit 虚。Looks good, but nothing concrete done. Qiuping is in like 20+ days, must in effort already.

Oh yeah after lesson i went to shop for present for mommy... settled on a ty bear and a photoframe, both in blue, and they look good together! haha but aiyoh, i'm still spending my parents money after all. shhhh about the price, or my mom won't be able to enjoy the present =)

And so throw face! Its the first time i buy gift and get it wrapped, previously i'll buy and bring back and ask mom to wrap... but can't quite ask her to wrap her own person right?? Then the salesgal said, choose a wrapper... and i took one thats already folded in a box! Dummy right! then she laughed lor and pointed me to those sheets of gift wrappers. so 丢脸。 Hahahaa but i laughed as well. I mean, at least its smth to laugh about, because the day has generally be pretty down.

Oh yeah at the train there met Jingna. Then we chat chat chat then by the time i try to squeeze into the train it was full! then had to wait for the next one, then hansiong came lol, so coincidental. By then the down-ness, if there's such a word, of the day had faded, and it was a happy ride home.

Go Away downess, i don't want to see you, ever again!

All Gone Wrong

haiz. We're out. Luck wasn't with us i suppose, and i myself screwed up. sigh. But the last game was really fun. excellent man, although it was only 2-2 draw rather than a win. See zijian samba soccer then arvind then jayanth... lol very fun!!!!!! Although since we played lots of subs there were slip ups lah, but it doesn't matter, really, it was enjoyable, thats what matters.

Special thanks to Zijian who subbed himself out to let me play, and HengZhong for helping me take care of my stuff all these while. Thanks man.

Oh yeah hongjie said should go play this new game, Water Margins Online. Gonna try it now, but nah, i wouldn't get addicted. Byee!

owwwww

My head hurts. Owww.

Today had lit ct which had some weird question format. They showed posters of productions for Importance of being Earnest, asked us to comment on the thematic approach and then select one which we 'd use if we were to produce the play as well. Of course, i applaud the lit teachers for coming up with this refreshing test format. But scores wise, since i've never done smth like that before, how well i fare is anyone's guess.

Then we had soccer training, which was nothing much more then long balls. And then we played. Fell down and hurt my grazed my knee. Then greg zijian and i went for lunch and then we met ruilin, so we went over to his house for pool. Then after that greg and i went to play bball with daniel yonghan etc who happened to be playing downstairs as well.

Why owww?
Cause we got owned in bball (ouch)
Cause i lost my watch (ouchieeeeee)
cause i ended up nausea and a bad headache (owwwwwwwwwwwwwieeeeeeeee)

Dont feel quite right today. The headache subsided after i returned home and showered but it came back when i went to read the papers. i must have been too tired over the last few days. Oh yes and the newspaper ran an article about pubbing. hmm, interesting.

But of cuz the focus now is on the soccer tourney tmrw. Like zenzel's nick wrote:"You won't lose. Your heart will not let you."

PEB

i think this morn i woke up so late, feeling so bad, we can attribute it to the sickness called Post Election Blues. Gee, i expected it to be post exam blues, but then elections make a bigger impact. Its about our future, after all.

I doubt i'm the only one feeling down after the elections. I think someone who's just been prevented from flying to Sweden will suffer from the PEB as well. What can i say? plenty. But its my last paper, Lit, tmrw, so lets sum it in one word : Typical.

I think i ruffled a few feathers today. Ok, just one. One Super-Size-Me standard of a feather, in fact. Hahaha. Geez i'm being mean. But then tall and big size is good for him what, of cuz all the better if he can trim down. Anyway its just that in tuition today the teacher was saying about singapore gals not dressing up well enough, so i just threw an 'i'm-scrutinising-you-to-see-if-she's-right' look at the gals, who included Lihan. Then the teacher saw and then said that i dun appreciate lihan its alright, some other guys will like her, then i went like <--- (pointing to him on my left). Not that i don't want to name him, just that poor memory lah, i forgot his name ><

To which of cuz, the entire class roared with laughter, and then he was saying smth like i very qian bian, really angry or not, difficult to gauge from tone. haiyo. so no 度量! But of cuz i didn't say that lah, no point sparking a possible confrontation if he's really pissed, since there's like no prize to be won. Only if i can use all these energy in study, then i'll be rewarded with MARKS! Which is impt, cuz i barely passed the tuition centre's test.

Anyway, it brought back memories of 6k. I still remember last time the class tease me about cel and i got so pissed that i actually kicked the chair ( not stand up and kick lah. was sitting down, then kick the chair in front of me). geez, so childish of me then. But then i suppose at that point of time i was already pretty mature, since the moment i kicked i regretted it. And mrs tham was shocked lor. i've always been so guai. And always will be. ~~yayness~~

Oh yeah, speaking of 6k, i read abt 6j's gathering from weichee msn nick. Haiyo. jealous sia. I also want! haha of cuz when u bring back p6 memories, how good mrs tham was, the speeches Ling Lao Shi made,chess games at the end of year, soccer with tennis ball during recess or catching or 'alley oop' hahaha oh yeah and when we tease shawn and u see jamie face become like tomato. aiyo. and that time still playing archmage with neozy and shane lor. although in sec sch we also played archspace together lah, which was very fun but unfortunately terminated cuz we piss aaron off. haha. we're still kids, aren't we?oh my. i'm so nostalagic.

But then all these now say very emotional, but then when really got gathering, will be like 面面相觑。ohwells. see how lah. After tmrw i go see how interested the others are to meet up. But then neozy will have Os. I think timothy jamie and probably others will have as well. Jon ng of cuz will be interested. Walter likely no-go. Yewei yes but he seems reluctant to organise, which is understandable cuz its really tough. And geez not me organise. The Weiqi friendly thingy with RJC also not done. and the training camp before Qiuping cup. And i haven't spilt up my players for the two divisions! ugh. ok ok. clear my own duties first. and then we'll look at a possible gathering again, if the others are for it.

really ought to sleep. ~tata~

Somewhere in between

Ouch. My whole body is aching. Could be the trip to the rally and all, or maybe just overworked at my gym session. And oh yeah, i brought the Newpaper to the rally to put on the grass and thought i was really smart. But geez. they TORE! And the silly black ant actually crawled into my pants and BIT ME. Should have wore long pants instead. haha but kind compassionate me spared its life. ~kindness~

The early speeches were meant to be stirring i suppose, but logically speaking nah, errors galore. Like when i was translating the dialect/chinese speeches for satt and ravi(who dumped zijian for me :P hail my chineseeee) it sounded very very good, but then during pauses in the speech where i spend a moment to consider what i mechanically translated, they didn't seem to make much logical sense. Geez, is this libel? Nah Ravi actually bothered to take down notes along with Ben ong, so i can refer to what they wrote down i point out the mistakes one by one if they do take me to court, ha.

Oh yeah, i've learnt, if i go rally next time, go with satt and ravi, then tamil and malay you'll also get translation. but a pity lah, none of us the dialect really that good, i can only pick up phrases here and there.

I think after gomez speech things start to pick up. Lang and Walter started to look less sleepy. And of cuz by the time sylvia lim came to speech it was good. But mr low is fantastic. "mm si wa mai da diou jiu wher, wa da diou jiu e nang da wai bo tak cek" (not i don't want to speech in teochew, i speak in teochew they say i never study). LOL! I was bowed over! cuz my grandma used to speak to me in teochew. But logically speaking, the words of these 3 speakers made more sense as well.

Some guys actually came in sch u. lol. Lucky not all 10 of us (me satt ravi ben prem walter lang kennedy BP Junwei zijian) came in sch u lor, or we'll really look so PAP.

Aiyah. the smokers were irritating , we were waving the flag so energetically not so much as a sign of support, but the fan the poisonous gas away. Yucks. So many policemen there, why never stop the smoker. I thought no smoking allowed in stadiums? And at the end when ppl starting chanting "Bo zheng hu" (no governement) i was freaked out, like what? they wanna start riot ah? But Walter was still cool enough to wave around like he's Mr. Low and say "Vote for WP (Walter's Party)". Geez. omigod if theres like grc kind of thing for prefectorial board i really oughta force my way into one helmed by walter. confirm in!

Oh the crowd's really HUGE. Sea of ppl man. gosh. If the S-league attendance is anywhere near half of it, i think they'd consider it an achievement. i mean, the whole place is filled up, and ppl can't get in. oh my.

i think Low is the best speaker of the night. Lim was good, but i think Low is just unique. Walter prefers Lim though, but then Zijian agrees with me about Low. So we win 2-1, yay, barcelona 2, Arsenal 1. =p

We saw Brian afterwards, who was supposed to go to the hougang PAP one. And then he actually came over lor. The hougang one must be so interesting =_=""""

Oh yeah. the lift upgrading issue gave me an idea:

To Zijian/ravi/prasatt (whoever else who wants the pictures i took): come get from my blog!! never visit my blog i withhold the pictures! hahaha. Lol, so shameless. dunno like who hor. hahaha!
^^

yo, BIO!

Ok i pass bio. hahaha. Conclusion: Last minute mugging works when the notes are of the highest (read:Most spoonfeeding) standard. Yayness.

Oh yeah we're gonna go WP rally tonight, me zijian ravi, likely walter and probably taufiq. And zenn/ian/brian are dumping us to go watch the PAP! I thought even the pap themselves said if you want entertainment, go to the opposition rallies? oops. No, we're not going for entertainment. Just that if nothing else, there is, well, entertainment!

J wong actually went to make an announcement to promote it. Geez, why won't students go on their own, without prompting? Oh yeah he mentioned next term we(sec4) 're gonna do active citizenry, so going to rally will help us. Yucks. Its practical of cuz, but thats so 功利, profit motivated, like ppl learning chinese just for business in china. Oh wells, its a practical world, so i understand if the teacher gotta use practical method to make us do the correct thing.

Oh yeah. The Humans dept could have switched our globalisation topic with the active citizenry one. It'll be such good timing. We could do assignments like rally report, comments, mock rally! WOW! I mean, Elections are a huge part of active citizenry, is it not? But of course, i understand the humans dept's limitation. Who knows when the elections will be? Its kind of hard to tell, no one knows that far in advance, not even the opposition >< Which is why, working the ground right after an election always pays off. Aljunied is hotly contested, and besides the sylvia lim factor, i'm sure hard work plays a part as well.

Whats my political stance? Of course i know, there're so many laws concerning these sort of things on blog. So i'll be very general. We all want a good government that can work for the good of the ppl, and as long as the folks in parliament can do the job, i'm not really gonna haggle about 160000/month. Oh yeah, i do agree that we must take responsibility for what we say. Which means, if you say someone has been a trouble maker, in parliament no less,then you really oughta list what points he's raised, and proof why they're troubles rather than genuinely debatable issues. And if you said someone has made no contributions, then u again must list what he's done in parliament, and show them useless. More useless than the other 83, if really wanna oust him.

Oh yeah, one more thing, if you throw someone a challenge, see it through.

whee! I went gym again after 1 week or so.Haiz. I've been having a bad stomach leading up to the exams and through it, i think my fitness dropped. And those snacks and tidbits sure have found a way to camp on my abs. sheesh. hahaha, i BURN them. BURN!!!!

Anyway, i feel so relaxed now. I'm loving it!

nothing more, nothing less

Bio's the last one, and so far bio's done.

Of course there's lit on monday, but i'll leave that to the weekend.

But i think my bio will just pass, nothing more, hopefully nothing less.

Because i wasted my entire day, save for the last few hours.

well. I don't want to bitch around anymore.. glad that i did study for those precious few hours.

~yayness~

<缓慢〉

等得太久不想继续

也不想结束

分开时我走出

最遥远的旅途

最缓慢的脚步

I've always loved this song, originally sang by someone else, but the version i heard if from Shino Lin. Maybe i'd upload it here once iyyy has the time to teach me how to.

Have you ever liked a song so much, and then one day the lyrics actually applies to You? Doesn't have to literally, of course. But yeah. Its a strange feeling.

Monday night was a strange night. The song sounded particularly good, particularly touching. Maybe its because a chapter was closed... Sigh. Not that i wanted to, but... In life, we must always move on.Chapter 1 can be really well written, but if there's no inspiration to write a chapter 2 befitting of the entire story's high standard.. then leave it at Chapter 1. Oh yes and english paper wasn't particularly good. That friend of my recommended me some really good books, Angela's Ash and all, which i've found nice but only had the time to read sparingly. After CTs i'm so gonna read them, the fren's last present to me, in a sense.

And maybe if i gather enough inspiration, then a 'chapter 2' is possible. 随缘。

Nah monday wasn't that dark. I heard a very encouraging story on 933FM's Music Diary. Its beautiful, especially with Ling Zhi's voice. And then there was another story in her 说说而已segment which was both funny and inspiring. I'd like to reproduce the story, but it'll take a whole lot of typing chinese, which isn't particularly convenient. But the main message was:

"积极的人像太阳，去到哪里哪里亮；消极的人像月亮，初一十五不一样！ "

Yeah! Gonna stay positive, which will really help cuz things arent going well.

My papers today were terrible. I've always maintained that i'll not discuss papers since i don't want to worry abt whats done, but then i guess giving general comments is ok, since i already have a sense of how i fared. I don't want to regress to last year, failing CT1 and getting down the failure spiral. Lets hope it ain't that bad, and i'll pick up the pieces and aim for A1 overall... that basically means extremely high results for SA2, but then, as long as it's mathematically possible, then it IS possible.

Although i do feel that i need a break. Just had physics tuition... Haiz. Really, the electricity chapter was too rushed. I caught no ball and had to struggle just now. I'm not even sure if i'll pass. I've been saying stuff to myself, must study myself and not rely on teachers etc... but then its not easy to carry out. Probably it'll do me good if i really screw up these tests, and if from there on i get motivated enough to study myself then it'll be a net benefit.

Can spend the week after common tests relaxing first. There's soccer tourney, i doubt i'll get to play but i'd still go down and support the guys. And next fri is public holiday, meaning i lose yet another session of weiqi with the chess club guys =( Since i've already gave up the school trip to Beijing in order to take part in my last Qiuping, i better make this a good swansong. Gotta call the guys up, we don't want to slip up and not even be able to maintain 2nd. We'll see.

no, maybe not THAT bad

Geez.
My previous entry seemed so dark. ewww.pfft. not nice.
NO! won't be that bad.
This is just a patch of darkness,

I'll ride out the storm!

And it'll be a bright day again.

Pass or fail, after exam its still holidays =)

yay.

Maybe its the sad movie songs that i've been listening to. recently there's this compilation of tracks of movie theme songs, and those from 倩女幽魂 were so saddening, particularly the one played when xiao qian and the guy were together in the room, fearful of the rising sun as the sunlight will make her vanish.... its really really touching. I'm not sure if the song alone is that touching, but once u've heard it along with the scene and have a passionate heart, then you'll feel as i did. Sobx.

Its a very sad song,but i won't stop hearing, cause its a good song.

Besides, i'll ride out this storm.

Reconsider, rethink

Its not been a good long wkn.

Maybe in the long run its good. Cuz it set me thinking.

In a number of fields. Lets start with Chinese tuition. Its group tuition, and then theres this point system for each group to win points. Anyway, i of course went ahead and be as enthu as possible, since the teacher was actually reviewing a zuo wen i did on. And then some smart ppl will comment, so 功利, like , want points, eager to win. Which IS true. Cuz i do want to win. I mean, a game is no longer fun when ppl don't try to win it! But the greater concern i thought about though, is

1) Why don't i bring this enthusiasm to my home?

Its like, when i'm home i can hardly study. Which reminds me of the need to go gym, cuz i realised, on gym days i stick to my schedule alot better. Could be just psychological effect, but really, it helps. Or maybe i can only be so enthu with ppl around. Oh wells. I need to start earlier for the next CTs, just as i tell myself after each CT. But then now, its LAST CHANCE. So i better grab it. Oh yeah, i've set pretty high targets for myself this ct, as IAG taught me. Just that i didn't follow what they taught, that is, start like at least 1 month ahead :( So well next time i'll target earlier and constantly remind myself of it, and then perhaps i really will improve!

2) Socially, am i that bad?

I'm not slow, not that it took me until now to realise i don't really interact much with the ppl there save for my groupmates (who happen to be from ri as well). Just that when other sad stuff come, it all floods. When it rains, it pours.
There's proof.
Like when Li Han, after reshuffling, set besides me, gave me a funny look. EH! ITS HER HONOUR OK!
And then when the rest of the class goof around when writing in class i'd scold them.
I think its an attitude thingy. MIne's different from them, i go there to study so thats high priority, whereas they have more leeway for tomfoolery.
Maybe next time i should go earlier and chit chat first. No man is an island, after all. But then lesson time i'll still go for mine points, writing time i'd still want silence. YAY.

And after reading walter's email to 3h class, haiz. ALso set me thinking. oh wells, my entries are always so long i don't suppose many would read, but then again i don't want it to be so long that I myself won't read. So yeah, another day for that.