capture the feeling and write

season's over over over

i've won a medal from the bench, not the way i wanna win it but at least i got to play thx for giving me the chance to play i know its pretty much my fault but i got no idea whether i got it in me to push for one more.

===out===

the task at hand

I think its really impt to focus on the task at hand each time. Yeah. so i better go focus on my next task heh ok this is a really lame post

now time's tight

i've never left school in the middle of term for any activities before, so missing lessons is proving to be aa real challenge. Seems like i really cannot waste time. Skipped weiqi league last week, and only spent the day researching gym stuff. Oh no. As in , not that its unimportant, but that its not the priority now. gee.

So clear work, clear work, and clear more work, so i can really go and enjoy the trip.

Floorball, weiqi, gymming, we'll deal with them one at a time, when the time is right.

How do you get it off your chest

Went gym with alwyn today, and the instructor there told us abt how we were doing it wrongly for Bench Press, and have screwed up our shoulders. Pretty scary thing really, since i've been gymming for more than a year, thats hell lot of time put not only to waste, but to damaging ur own body!

bothered me hell lot. Spents plenty of time today researching what to do abt it, by digging up MH and searching the net. Now my work schedule's screwed, and i dun have a definite answer. this doesn't sound good. Alright, night time then sleep and everything 'll be better someday sometime.

Do you call that selfish?

I kinda feel i'm being a such a bitch thinking only abt myself after we lost this crucial game today, kinda reminds me of Lady Catherine De bourgh (from Pride and Prejudice) having 'I' 'I' and more 'I's in merely one paragraph which we went through today.

Ok, so gold's no longer in our hands, but i think we played pretty well today, and had put ourselves in a position to win a team that's really good themselves.

But like i said my thoughts have been filled with stuff abt myself so yeah it needs an outlet, doesnt it?

Its been pretty darn sian sitting on the bench when your team's winning, and it plain sucks to be there when ur losing, cuz u really want ur team to win, but u can't do nothing on the bench. But of cuz, its up to me to stake my claim on a position in the rotation. Players pretty much pick themselves with their own performances, and i'm absolutely thrilled that Monday will be my chance. Its in my hands now, i'm gonna plan my work such that ican afford to train plenty over the next 3 days. And i shall psyche myself up and go to bed dreaming of scoring goals, and preparing moves (dont get stuck in the middle no more!).

alright yeah and no, being benched is NOT ok just cuz i'm j1, i'm a player, i'm here to play. I think any self-respecting player wont turn up merely to make up the numbers.

I will play, and shine. Now, get down to work.

quick comments

of course what i shld be doing now is hurry to sleep and hope this feeling in my throat doesn't develop to a full-fledge sore throat tmrw.

But some things to say. Last fri's friendly with teachers wasn't all that great, but one small events' still on my mind, after scoring in the game afterwards (informal), someone was saying "Raffles No. 6 scores" and hey it already felt good then, i so wanna replicate it for formal matches!!

Past few days have been rather good work wise, glad i churned the book extracts thingo out, but the distractions and deviations from plan still exists, like sat afternoon's nap, sunday morn's slacking and last nite's late nite.

But glad with my work ethic in sch today. Ok yes zijian's right this is so becoming a chronology of my life. ewwks no its like some self-improvement journal. Ok ok a pain to read, but hey its stuff i'd like to rmbr.

oh yes and 1 note to myself don't push everything to wkn! like pw stuff and reading of lit notes. Geesh. i dun want history to repeat. but then again, it always does :(

oh yes and it feels good to smell an A for once =D

The efficacy of library in stimulating work

read A streetcar named desire today. Whheee on plan on plan. But doubt there'll be time for its commentary, just gonna read Great Gatsby tmrw.

Got B for math =( didn't like some comments i heard as well.

Floorball was encouraging. Awareness, i need court awareness. And calmness too. I can almost see myself meditating in the middle of the court, right before match starts.

Alright hurry along, time's ticking away.

Not really

Cant say everything went as planned.

Hit the gym, room's packed, worked on skipping and floorball, BUT P&P NOT DONE!!! in its place was reading weiqi magazine, omg nie weiping's the real deal, his comments are so illuminating.

+ an afternoon nap.

Rather scared i can't get to slp later, and screw things up tmrw. Rmbr, training now is as impt as match!

So i'll sleep. Nitey!

everything as planned

Games like the one against Zhaobin today, are the ones to remember.

A tough battle throughout (actually, i let a lead slip, eeww, but nvm i made him let slip his lead a well) and a 0.5pts win, classic. For me at least, of cuz to pros its like, TERRIBLE game, full of errors here and there, but then again errors create drama, and drama is the stuff memorable games are made of.


Did only 2 chapters of P&P instead of 3, and floorball shooting was pretty embarrassing.

Keep going, its ur life, work with it :)

Tmrw's plan: gym in the morning, and 1 chapter of P&P (that brings me to chapter 15) before lunch. Thereafter, 2 chapters of P&P (now we're at 17), then packing of room! Then in my CLEAN and TIDY room do 2 more chapters and we're at 19 and its time to PLAY. So do the skipping and floorball then it'll be about dinner time. After dinner do 1 last P&P, then its time for a review of the past 6 months and planning ahead! Then pack bag and sleep, by 11 :)

Ok i know its terribly boring to narrate everything out. So maybe by tmrw i can drop by and proudly declare, "everything as planned"