difficult

of course i know i need a plan.

And i know Study is Priority No. 1.

But it isn't a very interesting no.1 to work with (and around).

some boring stuff

I think the bad thing about smth good is that i think too much about it, and have no time to do it instead.

Spent the last hour thinking abt weiqi, looking thru old files and magz, but really i must ask, is this the best way for me to train? I'm pretty sure the answer is no, cuz my ji suan and sensitivity to shape is the one that needs work.

Feel comfortable with my weiqi recently. Just comfy with the way my games are going, though not the sudden-oversight-and-game-over part of it. But the overall feeling is still... well... comfortable. Sorry lah, not much vocab on display tonight. Phil said my style belongs to the 均衡type, and itll be easier to improve playing like that. I think thats good, cuz its like the mood i'm feeling right now? Not sure if i make sense. Oh but anyway i haven't really been displaying the all-out killing style i did for a short while in sec3 for 2 years now. That time when i was playing handi games with breakfast so often and got past the 5 and 4 handi games but utilising thickness to attack.

Nah. I'm more comfy the way i'm now.

Oh, but physically its not that way. Call me vain, but i looked at the mirror recently and think i need work again. Like, 2 weeks of working out isnt the only thing. My diet, i've been slack lately. Terribly slack. No more abalone noodles and snacks from now onwards! I think someone said it right, the reason stars are hot is cuz they got a deadline from directors when they must show off their top, so they have a deadline to work towards. So i'm gonna declare... actually, no i'm not gonna declare anything, cuz june is only a month long and there're cts to study for, weiqi to train, floorball to train and that includes hardcoring cardio cuz i do need fitness.

oh speaking of floorball went to shoot alone for an hour or so on tues and i think i finally sorted out my shooting problem. What do u look at when u shoot? the ball, or the target? Yes, target works well when i hit a dead ball, but what happens when i'm on the move? Ball? yeah i connect with the ball, but whr does it go? What about placement?

Answer, silly, is to look at BOTH.haha stupid me, couldn't even figure this simple thing out. There's such thing are peripheral vision, heard of? hahaha i felt so glad on thurs night feeling its such a constructive day i did no work at all.

Ive been some lazy piggy this week, sleeping my afternoon away and spending more time on the bed before starting work than the actual amt of time i spend studying itself.

KI ct is coming this wed, and my lagging for math & lit are major concerns as well. And they're bigger problems because i acknowledge they're a problem but never ever go about resolving them. As if waiting and sitting around will solve anything.

Tmrw when i wake up, please let me have some cow sense to spend the 2 days properly.

gym yes weiqi yes floorball yes, but after work's done.

night.

Purchasing Pika

hahaha i took so long to notice that the blogging part has slipped to the bottom of the page! i thought blogger was down the past few days.

I think i'm recovering from stomach flu already, and on hindsight the illness could not have come at a better time, after all the cca debacle i surely needed an excuse to sleep the sorrow away, and have a ready reminder that there 're worse things in life than those that just happened, and not having a healthy body is one of those.

Which is why its rather sad that mommy will spend Mother's day ill and so 'll dad. They're both sick, one day after another! and both with the same symptoms as i had. family disease, huh.

and guess what, the electricity's gonna be out tmrw as ntu checks it power station.

Pikachu, i choose you!

THUNDERBOLT!!!!!

right again

yes zijian my posts are getting so cryptic in a bad way that it just points to a troubled mind. And my dp really is so un-me. Like, before this pic, since when did i put a gal up there? Looks more like a dp you'd put up, lew.

So its back to a weiqi dp and a more straightforward blog post.

无官一身清 i think i must use this carefreeness more, now that after some hours at math i know i can still study.its a good feeling, to know you are still capable of work. Esp since more 'll soon be piled on me lol.

ok nuff of this, everything's back to normal... and more!

correct

I'm taking a little timeout from my fightback to clear work backlog to say:

Mommy's right! I really ought not to "think so much". These 2 years will pass real fast.

Stop being neurotic and overamplifying my own problems. Maybe like the japanese drama i saw yrs ago, i should go lie on the field and gaze and at stars. And maybe then i'll realise, how small and insignificant humans are in this big, big world. No, its UNIVERSE.

So chill and take things easy, if nothing else there's always mommy.

=)

p.s When's mother's day?!