did it work, or not?

Didn't really spend all that much time thinking today.

Morn was spent reading the papers. And worrying abt the small of my back, gosh its a damn small part but its aching. *shivers*. Sure hope i didn't hurt them too bad from squats. Don't wanna be out from gymming. Then picked up Da Vinci code and started reading. I know its kinda late, but oh well better than nvr.

Afternoon was playing msn games with zishun, then we went to yahoo pool instead and back to solitaire again whee.

Evening played chess with my dad. Quality time spent? hahaha. Our first game in a long long while.

Then after that played 7hand poker with neozy before finally getting down to work.

I've sorted everything out, but the schedule, even without a 2nd cca, looks extremely demanding. Here's the projected schedule :

Projected exercise days:

Monday: Gym training to chase away Monday blues!
Wednesday: Gym training on this day with lesser workload.
Friday: Gym. As the wkn reckons, its time to work out
Sunday: Cardio. Could either be swimming or running intervals if 2/week quota yet to be met.

Projected Weiqi training schedule:
1 game/ week with phillip
1 lesson/week with phillip
1 RJC training -> put in time for training sihuo

The other 3 days will be spilt into ‘heavy’ and ‘light’ days, with at least 1 of each per week, in addition to one ‘off’ day per week.
Heavy- sihuo (15min) + slow game (1h30min) + self-review (15min)
Light- sihuo (30min) + Da pu (30min) + fast games (1h)

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Tsktsk. Must remind myself, relook my goals WEEKLY. Looking back at these 2 months and the goals i've set before it, i realise i'd have had an even more fufilling time had i followed them more closely.

But its pretty good already.

for starters, that is.

What i Like

Sometimes capturing feeling's not easy.

and cuz i didn't write anything mid-week, much of it's gone.

This has been a rather emotionally charged week. Not that anything huge occurred, just simply cuz its the last week of holidays.

Been raining non-stop early this wk. I can't rmbr much.

Ok lets focus on TODAY. Today i basically 闭关 right after gym to think abt what i want for next yr. Cuz as i said, the last few days were emotionally charged.

When u think about goals, it ought to be 1)EXCITING 2)SPECIFIC 3)achievable. And 3) is deliberately un-capped.Cuz if it is exciting enough, i know i'll find a way to get there.

What goals are exciting? Goals that let u achieve what you REALLY want.

What do i really want?

Nuggets picked up over the past few days:

1) Gymming. I really love working out i dunno why. Maybe its the pump i get from working out. maybe the sense of progression. Or the control and discipline it gives me over my life. Really enjoyed planning next yr's workout today.

2) Japanese ladies. Haha i didn't want to write it here but then again sch frens dun come here so its fine. U see yrs ago when i watched The Last Samurai i rmbr being enthralled by the wife (played by koyuki) of the samurai killed by Tom Cruise for quite awhile. Then on thurs after watching Death Note 2 i'm so captivated by Erika Toda (who acted as Misa) that for the first time ever, my wallpaper is not weiqi-related, but graced with her beautiful face.
But if you've watched both shows, u'll realise both characters are VERY different in character. So whats the similarity? Simply that they're japanese? Perhaps not. The 3rd kira in DN2 didn't evoke the same feelings. That they're subservient to guys? (koyuki's the demure, 听话kind, and misa is devoted to the point of blindly taking orders from Light 'just order, don't need to ask') Perhaps. But then u ask me now, i'd prefer Misa to koyuki. She looks so cute!! but its not just cuteness. Like, Hebe's cute. that taiwanese singer/host on 我猜's cute, but then they don't evoke the same feelings neither.
So what is it exactly? I think i gotta live in japan myself to find out.


There, there. 2 goals derived today.

1. Gymming goal (to be achieved by end of february 2007):

-Further Tone abs till they become thoroughly visible.
-Sub-10min for 2.4km Run
-Be able to perform 15 pull ups
-Be able to Bench Press 60kg
-Limit workouts to 4x a week

2.Learn japanese with the view to be fluent in the language within 4 yrs, or at least to be able to understand the language.

And guess what,its thru a short convo with phillip that i finally decided on the ORDER of my goals, plus the most IMPT: what to KICK out.

Here goes:

1. Studies. (Its my bread and butter, people. I want those 4As. Then i can go anywhere. Just that if i fail to land a scholarship, then there goes my house :( )
2. Weiqi. (I've said multiple times before that whatever progress i make next yr is likely gonna be the peak of my life, and yeah i'm gonna make it mt everest high. And phillip's prediction that if i work hard, i can reach zhang xiang's standard by next August is a real booster shot. Boston, i'm coming)
3. Gymming (And ppl will be wondering why i didn't go into sports =p )
4. Learning japanese. (as elaborated upon)

Alright tmrw's the 2nd day of my 闭关。i think another day of thinking and planning and packing 'd do me good.

Make me more englightened tmrw.

p.s: I think part of growing up, is gradually noticing that the movies stars u idolise are no longer that much older than u. Erika toda is only 18!!! oh bear with my 花吃-ness, it won't last long :P

You Know My Name

Pretty much wasting the night of an otherwise perfect day.

After dinner played audition, got owned, then pretty much just wasted the night away on clips and songs.

But anyway chenz sent me the link to a gem! I like the casino royale theme song!!! Here's the lyrics, poignant huh? enjoy :)

You Know My Name - Chris Cornell
Genre/Lang. : Rock/Metal

If you take a life do you know what you'll give?

Odds are, you won't like what it is

When the storm arrives, would you be seen with me?

By the merciless eyes of deceit?

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights

But you yourself are nothing so divine

Just next in line

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you

The odds will betray you

And I will replace you

You can't deny the prize it may never fulfill you

It longs to kill you

Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins

You know my name

If you come inside things will not be the same

When you return to the night

And if you think you've won

You never saw me change

The game that we all been playing

I've seen diamonds cut through harder men

Than you yourself

But if you must pretend

You may meet your end

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you

The odds will betray you

And I will replace you

You can't deny the prize it may never fulfill you

It longs to kill you

Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins

Try to hide your hand

Forget how to feel

Forget how to feel

Life is gone with just a spin of the wheel

Spin of the wheel

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you

The odds will betray you

And I will replace you

You can't deny the prize it may never fulfill you

It longs to kill you

Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins

You know my name

You know my name

You know my name

You know my name

You know my name

You know my name

You know my name

复活

I don't know when is Revival, but if i remember correctly from reading Roll of thunder, hear my cry, its somewhere around Christmas?

Regardless, i feel as if i've come back to life today.

Saturday went gym in the morn but the running sucked. Gave up after 4 rounds, cuz i was running so slowly it was meaningless. After that went AXS to get tickets , had to settle for FRONT ROW!!! grrr. No more wkn movies without prior booking for me anymore.

Evening went with chenz and ben to vivo, shopped, watched Curse of the Golden Flower and then played one round of pool and zoomed home. I knew i needed rest.

Oh yeah just a note, didn't find Curse particularly good. Those cleavage were kinda distracting.

Sunday woke late, so couldn't go running to make up for sat. Seems like i didn't quite get the rest i needed, cuz i slept at 1am the night before booking today's show. Went grandma's house then museum in the afternoon with my family, then week to catch Confessions of Pain. Not bad. Kaneshiro's acting's not bad, after all. Yeah. I think the 2 films that i watched, all the acting's good. Oh but the plot's not as good as Infernal Affairs, considering that they're both from the same director.

Anyway, after dinner i rushed back for the sleep that i needed. And i got it:)

Today woke an hour late but the running was good. 1:32/1:30/1:32/1:37/1:45/1:44.

I know, not anything to boast about, but still alot better than saturday. Then gymmed and didn't have enough time for lower body so 'd do it tmrw. Like, 1 wk before sch starts! So better get into shape =)

Oh then afternoon spent an hour or so on Guanzipu. FInally had the determination to get back to it. FINALLY!!!! hehehe. did not feel like touching weiqi at all the past few days, feel so guilty
:(

THen i went kgs for a game. Waited a long time, but finally... A WIN OVER A 5D!!! but then this 5d didn't feel particularly strong leh :( anyway, Jingna 'd be pleased to read the following:

yry [3d]: b wins by much
perdedor [4k]: it really is doll playing?
yry [3d]: ?
lily999 [11k]: lol
yry [3d]: why not?
perdedor [4k]: dunno, i thot she was a kyu
yry [3d]: when
perdedor [4k]: not too long ago.....
perdedor [4k]: maybe she got better......
yry [3d]: oh

hahahahaha. Wah jingna i peifu peifu. Even when u were kyu already got ppl notice u le arh!! U maybe u were bugging 'em all =)

day done things undone

Gym? Nope.
Weiqi? nope.
Went out? Nope.

Woke at 10 today, and could feel my back muscle, likely from ytd squats, so decided to take the day off. Really suspicious of myself becoming lazy.

Had the urge to try something new, and also felt like playing computer games. So i decided, i'd play a game which i had nvr done before. And Auditions seemed like a decent choice, though it took a long time to download. Read 老猫, the Wisely series but comic one, in the mean time.

So basically thats whr my day went.

No wonder holidays pass in the blink of an eye.

cuz i waste 'em.

So get back in order

The past few days were great, but they kinda shook me off my routine.

Uncharacteristically missed my gym this morning, sorry fiq, so i went in the afternoon instead.

Had dinner outside since mom was out.

I enjoyed walking all the way back home. Esp since its dark and abt to rain and walking in NTU, is walking in a semi-jungle.

Some primative fun, some thrill, maybe i'll enjoy army after all.

And i learnt so much

I feel i learnt so much over the past few days. Actually, its the Everyday-Interacting-With-Alot-Of-Different-Ppl thing. Good for hermits like me :) Lets go over slowly, since these are memories to keep:

Sunday was Fast Go comp. Lost to LWW but it was fun lah. Nice time talking to james as well. Good to see ppl contributing and helping spread Weiqi to fellow singaporeans. Then after the comp went jurong east with ben for dinner at kobayashi. Met weilai and co at the bus stop lol and weilai was really funny but heh better not post what he said up, later incur the wrath of certain ppl and endanger his chances of winning a scholarship =P

Oh yeah shld have just taken mrt back to boonlay. Took 198 instead, and it went THE WRONG WAY and i ended up at bukit merah interchange =.= and had to take all the way back gee.

Monday was interhall weiqi. I woke early in the morn and headed to gym at 7am in the morning and the aunty at the gym was like, "rarely see young ppl wake up so early. I ask my daugther come gym with me she lazy". Diao. She trying to matchmake or what ><

Had a great time at interhall. Although we didn't make the semis haiz. Oh, very good time interacting with the umpire and fellow team mates and then playing bridge lol. Oh yeah when i'm reading this entry in the future, refer to handwritten diary. Gonna write smth there. dun want to put that up here :P

Today mark chenz huixiang zijian came over for floorball was really fun i think its due to the free flowing nature of the game but gee wish ben wasn't sick and we could play 3 on3 instead.Oh yeah i'm really glad to have this bunch of frens who have no problem interacting with each other though not everyone knew everyone else beforehand. Oh and me-chenz-huixiang, diao, smth special man, since our bball days :)

Oh yeah i'm beginning to realise how lucky i'm staying in ntu with access to all the great facilities and friendly ppl. Better utilise it, cuz, cuz, in 2 yrs i'm army-bound :(

These days i can't think of good titles

so i write none.

Ytd didn't know that i had lesson, so rushed to lesson, then went for a run in the evening, then headed to ntu gym and for the first time in the long while did the cardio machines there.

Later it wasn't so good. the negative news wasn't smth i didn't expect, but forgetting abt it altogether was just ridiculous. Oh, and there's the sms, but well u know now i know i must go.

Today gymming for the first time in a long while fiq's PUNCTUAL!!!! *applause* Let's hope it'll be the same on mon at 7am in the morn, cuz i got tourney at like, 10.30 in the morn. Oh yeah, and we'll go get some minah's no. this time :P

But the effort spent today was rather rewarding. I got only 1 or 2 completely right, but for the rest of them, whatever % of what i've read out, i've sweated for it. Satisfied.

Then da pu from the 22nd issue of 棋艺mag. yes,i'm getting some feel back.

And after dinner its Sinbad Legend of the 7 Seas. Whee somehow i got the feeling that i've seen it before. I'm not sure. but it was nice anyway.

Alright. stack up loads of rest. Cuz there's still so much for me to persue.

and face it, tackle it, and make it disappear

Just lost a game vs a 5d after getting a group of mine killed. It had plenty of eye space. Just confirms what i already know, that my sihuo really sucks. Knew it from those failed attempts at 1star questions and previous trouncing. But looking on the bright side, once i tackle it, i'm 5d level!

Which really is a positive view. Oh well. i gotta keep fighting. Come to think of it, i've been training everyday for like, 2months straight? At least a month plus. Which was why i was confident last night at the hall weiqi team training, cuz i felt that even if other halls have 5dans, they cannot possibly be in as good a shape as i'm as their examinations had only ended recently.

But mine form now doesn't reflect that of someone who had trained daily for a month.

My sihuo. must be tackled.

Plans for floorball altered. Not gonna train with RJ beforehand, 'll be training at my place instead. Suddenly i feel so glad i live in NTU =)

break go break go

I'm hearing 'Break Go' by DA PUMP again. Was a track played during the 'My MVP Valentine' Series, i got the cd and now i'm still hearing it. Some songs nvr lose their flavour.

been troubled the past few days with broken sleep, having to go to the toilet a couple of times, which really worries me. Ah so i digged up the ST 'Mind your Body' series and read up, and the advice is, not caffeine in the evening and no water 2hours before sleep. Sure hope it works.

My weiqi 's getting lil frustrating, losing games to all those jisuan stuff. Guess i really better brush up on it, or else my game cannot progress. ugh.

Today's 6X400 was really slack, clocked 1:40 on my first run and it pretty much set the pace for everything else. I wanted to say, oh, the floor's wet, but hey, NO EXCUSES

My back ached pretty soon after trying to dribble with floorball. Tmrw gym must do endurance with back.

Aiyoh. My blog's getting monotonous. Signs of lifelessness. Or maybe, that just means i'm sticking to a routine.

Oh last reminder no more chocs please!!!!!!!!!!! I can't help eating them heh.

next one please!

yay won a 4d today. Played him in the afternoon, was leading and screwed up my endgame. So i decided to brush up my ji suan by doing guanzipu. but wasn't too successful.Then went for a 6X400 run (for once first 3 runs managed to keep under 1:30!! but then the next one was 1:32, then 1:39, then 1:50!!!) and did some dribbling with the borrowed floorball stick and came back for dinner. Then went online, waited quite awhile for an opponent, and out popped the same opponent again!

And finally, i won :D

now, now, go for 5ds!

What are you doing with earplugs on!

No no i'm not swimming. Its the drilling ugh ugh ugh. Reminiscent of the days when the block beside mine was being built =/

Last few days were pretty good. Actually , i was going out everyday time seems to past so quickly i just want to grab hold of it. Lets go day by day:

Tues: Whee woke at 6.30am and met up with taufiq for running& gymming, then headed for weiqi in bugis. Went for lunch after my lesson with phil and his student Gabriel who's this cute kid who's only p4 geegee such rosy cheeks *pinches* Then went home and finally borrowed a floorball stick !!! And collin's so nice he lent me his own stick instead of those my dad sponsored. I could airhook with this stick, if only i knew how to. So up and down i go, dribbling around me house.

Wed: Overslept in the morn cuz of the previous nite's floorball practise. Went to run my 6X400, but then there were a bunch of students occupying the track, and two of 'em had this newspaper-made shirt draped all over and for a moment i thought they'd whip out water bombs and start splashing each other but no they just layed stuff out on the track. Weird.
So i decided to use the trackmill but gee the silly gym card still doesn't work after my dad renewed membership so had to make do by doing suicide drill on the soccer court instead. yeah baby, use ur creativity, and u can exercise anywhere.
Afternoon met up with chenz ben mark hy and samantha at bl and well as predicted, the one who lives the nearest(me) is often the latest (me). Went for pool and watched casino royale, then ended it off with dinner at crystal jade.

thurs: Supposed to run and gym with fiq but he didn't turn up, so gymmed alone then went to eat lamb kebab, then it was lesson time again. Played against WW after that and lost, with White 178 aww. Ok i was pretty tired ytd so didn't play when i got home, just looked over some sihuoti and reviewed the earlier game.

Ok today's supposed to be weiqi marathon but this drilling is getting on my nerves. Probably play during lunchtime instead, when the thundering comes to a halt.

最近

i'm quite happy in having found 最近, which's the song by li sheng jie that i've been looking for. Wheee.

shane neozy aaron came over today, first comment which i heard from shane, "shihao's really damn short" o.O"""

Haha the rest of the day was fine, except they tire rather quickly, and we had to wait for chenz to come, which was when i got real exhausted. Playing bball with him's always exhausting, physically challenging, injury-prone. But i love the challenge and the nagging injuries, because they remind me i've been working hard.

Then ltr at my place ben and yanhan came over as well. We ordered pizza for dinner, canadian 2 for 1, which means we had 4 pizzas in total lol. 5 ex nanyangs and 2 ri frens, and 1 jolly good time. glad everyone could get along fine.

Anyway, rather guilty abt indulging in the sweet stuff today, and 5 slices of pizza. Better work off the calories tmrw, and know that i've been relaxing my watch on my diet rather too often.

More seriously, rather upset with my effort in weiqi. Like, whole day didn't study weiqi except in the morning got da pu. Just played a game with a 5d and after playing a no. of games at 4d, my conclusion is that i can match 'em in the opening, but when it comes to calculation i'm rather far behind. Tmrw gonna buy guanzipu, and spend the afternoon working through it. And the afternoons to come, will surely feature the ancient manual as well.

As we observed, more than half of the holidays are over. Its time to step up a gear, and hurry to fufil my holiday goals.

go!

the thrill of winning

whee i finally won at 4d after two losses today playing with jingna's acct. =D feels great!

otherwise today has been a rather dull day. I just put in my SHE cd into the cd player, and went to my laptop looking for it to load on Realplayer =/

Need my sleep heh. 1.30am each nite won't do.

Went to run in the afternoon and it was raining. Running in the rain's nice, except sometimes it gets hard to open ur eyes. Goggles!

then went to shoot some hoops. I realised, shooting really isn't that hard. Its pretty mechanical, and u really have to be focused. But sheesh seems like my strength hasn't improved since sec 1. i still have to break form to shoot 3s, until i start stepping into the shot. Hmmm. lucky i'm not intending to ball next yr :)

Pri sch gathering on mon 'll have real little ppl. Once jt didn't want come means neither does jamie, which means cel not coming either. Walter and fx didn't reply which meant a no. To which i was still like, okay, cuz still have the ol' clique. Then now nigel cannot which means no timo and yuxuan didn't reply and enloong can't come lol. 徒劳无功。

So it'll be neozy shane aaron & yanhan. Wheeeeee. So long!

aiyer

No mood to write!

Ok i can't quite rmbr the week past.

ok wed thx fiq for the chips, though i won't risk putting on extra calories for 'em lol. I understand when ur late lah, as long as u inform me its fine.

ytd went to swim, then went for lesson. at night had fun seeing phillip make jingna's acct 6d for me to play. its 5d now, after losing just 1 game (not by me, phil decided to drop 1 more). Gee. Why drop sooo fast! Shane and i were laughing our ass off though, really funny seeing ppl wonder why an 8d? resigns when he's killing a grp lol. And one guy asked me abt my crown beside my nick then the convo somehow moved to jingna whee she's like a mini celeb there eh i'll have fun using her acct :P

Today collected testi, run then gym then weiqi from 2-8. then been chatting online since 10. I'm bushed. Ok nitey ppl.