Get out of that hole, you

As an afterthought, slacking off last week probably wasn't too good an idea.

After crashing out of the race to rep sg in world ama youth go championship, then having floorball for 3 days in a row (1 training session whr coach cut ppl, 1 friendly and 1 day of 3 on 3 tournament) and picking up a back injury along the way, sidelining me for the rest of the holi with nothing to do but hw and nothing to dwell upon but failure.

So i decided Term 2 Week1 will be my holiday, Version 2.0 --> bad idea.

Actually, it wasn't ridiculous to take week 1 easy. After all, there was no official floorball training and no essays in the periphery. But 2 sessions of floorball-for-fun, a swim and pool outing(with who else but good ol ben and chenz), a botched p6 class gather and a canoe PT later, i'm in a deeper hole than before.

No no i'm not up to my neck with homework. Just that the winner, go-getter mentality that i thought i possessed, simply cannot be located.

Same story last night after weiqi and this whole morn and afternoon. Doodling away precious time. So i canned my workout this evening and set about planning a weekly timetable.

I've done it many times before, and it seldom succeeds. But what it does is to get me into this strict mode of thinking, instilling discipline and considering the worth of every minute i spent. i know i can afford to be laxer than what my schedule dictates, but i'll follow strictly for this week, just to get the mindset back.

We'll see how things go.

I'm all for it, high-intensity stuff. Make the most of every minute, make ém count, cuz the clock's ticking away and i'll be out of time, so go , get something done.

You know the Deal

You know the deal, don't ya.

Win and you're in. You win, you're in, simple. No screwed up refs, no home court (dis)advantage, bad weather, teammates messing up etc. Time pressure? Yeah. But it's still simple enough, you win, you're in.

So what if you don't?

First it's a blank. All blank.Emo-ness building, but ur all blank.

Then the emo buld-up builds to the point, where if i were an ahbeng, i'd head to some to some smoky join and pick a fight. But i'm more cultured than that. Nearly cultured enough, in fact, to pick up my lit and read Pride and Prejudice. But not quite neither.

So here i am, wasting my night away in front of the tv and my laptop.

It's 0-2 so far, 0 for vj symposium and 0 for weiqi.

oh 1 for floorball tmrw.

and maybe that's easier than contemplating between whether to call time on it, when its time to move on, or head towards ending with a bang... rather than a whimper.

give me a whiff of victory, i wanna hunt one down.

Here it is, my baby

MY FLOORBALL STICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok now it looks weird cuz of its blade but who cares it MY baby haha sorry baby for bending u so ugly, but nvm i'll win with u all the same :)

oh baby should i give u a name?

ANyway it was gd ytd scoring in both games (recre game and game vs alumni) heh but i know i played badly in both, didn't run back to help in defence and was pretty much outclassed vs the alumni. I think gymming in the morn and bball in the afternoon did take its toll after all, the skin at the bottom of my feet are peeling! Aiyah they'll adapt anyway. i must go play more fball against better players, better to lose now than later!

On a separate note, this whole RJC this has been such a learning journey for me, observing the diff btwn guys and gals. I'll watch and learn, watch and learn, so losses meanwhile? Tuition fees :)