dead

I can't believe my HP just died for good. I thought it could last till the contract was up. Oh well.

This week's been a busy one. Slightly less productive than last week whr i finished the KI book. Still got a long way to go with pride and prejudice.

Ytd gotta be the highlight of the week, the floorball trials. OMG i really put in my all and last night it was hard to get to sleep, being in a state of heightened awareness throughout the trials.

Suffering from fatigue today. did pretty badly at pe and was tired overall today. But at least wasn't as tired at weiqi this wk as i was in the last.

Skipped gym today, gg tmrw instead.

I think its high time i give myself an early night. nitey.

smile

hit the gym again today.

Finally did 7reps of 16.25 kg on each side for bench press... which means... increasing to 17.5! Next 'll be 18.75... then 20 and i'm lifting my body weight wohoo!!!!!!!! =D

And i'm finally smiling again. I know i feel happy, but the mirrors in the gym made me realise i wasn't expressing it. Eye contact wise, i'm not making as much as i did before. I dunno why. Socially retracting?

Ytd went to watch the play "Everything but the Brain"(again, shall i add. watched it few yrs ago, and not much difference) felt rather awkward seeing everyone in clothing not called sch-u. Maybe its a blessing that jc got uniform. Fussing over dressing, which i had lots of fun with in the holis, seems so dreadful now. I dunno why.

Just smile.

cuz happiness is a decision.

Must decide to be happy and smile more, make more eye contact, because life's only gonna get more hectic and joy must be found somewhere.

And for the first time in a long while, i'm getting it from sihuoti. Just decided to screw the idea of filling all four corners with questions. Rather, i focus on one at a time and make sure i get it right. Its paying off. whee.

So be happy. Smile.

once a week thing

This is fast becoming a once-a-week only blog.

Pretty good week. feels like i've made the right choices with subj combi, enjoying my lessons alot. One thing abt the KI book though, when i'm wide awake its really interesting cuz i'll have the energy to really consider the ideas. But when i'm tired, its a bore, cuz i can't follow.

Weiqi's been pretty bad though. Can't set aside enough time for sihuoti, and phil mentioned that i looked too tired at lessons, which makes it less effective. So now we've rescheduled lessons(i have a slack day before, so i can grab enough sleep), changed games to online ones(saves time) and i've decided to wake half an hour earlier each day to do sihuoti. Hope it helps.

Went gymwith Ali on tues and he was telling me abt the various tryouts he went for, RP, soccer and what not, so i realised i oughta get out there and have some fun as well, so wed was spent on vball and frisbee clinics. Ytd attended floorball.

I think ultimately i'll stick with my original choice of floorball & Weiqi as ccas, frisbee as backup for floorball and vball just for fun. Just that hongjie junwei etc are at vball as well, which kinda makes me wanna join.

But floorball's nice as well. Huixiang hz prasatt arvind S yongqian mark nigel all joining as well, so even if ben and chenz decide to switch to vball i think its still ok. Besides, their season is in July, whereas vball season is in March, so the chances of making the team for floorball is much higher.

Been making good use of time between periods rushing work, at the risk of looking antisocial. Which is why it piques me whenever i waste time on television after i get home.

Oh. But i still love playing weiqi and hitting the gym. these are my leisure activities, man.

Thats a huge part of my life. yeah, i've got one :)

泰山崩于前而色不变

This week passed so fast i can't rmbr what happened.

But it's too valuable to forget just like that, so i'll try to recall with the help of my timetable later.

Lets talk abt today first.

Due to Rj's timetable that strangely doesn't run by the hour, had a tough time timetabling this morn. Thats not the only trouble though. Its that, there are FAR too many uncertainties for me to plan anything meaningful. When do i have my Weiqi Lessons? That can be answered tmrw when i meet phil. What 'll the workload be like? I'll know soon enough. When will i do maths tutorial & humans essay? Crap u mean i still have work undone!? And how will i fit floorball training in? gee i dare not think.

I guess i could sense i was really stressed and on my way to the gym i was trying to think thoughts that 'd keep me calm and cool and regain my peace of mind. Then i remembered tph once said the phrase: 泰山崩于前而色不变. yes yes yes exactly! Whatever comes next week will just come and go. Things will take care of themselves. I ought not be overaffected. Surely i can keep my mind clear and enjoy One Last Dance tmrw.

Ok now for a recap of the week:

Monday- Last day of orientation. I recall waking up in a poetic mood and thought of many stuff to write for the little notes that 'd be passed to my fellow og mates in the evening. Hmm what else do i recall. Oh yes War Games! First one was Ultimate Tag which was fun, since this mini walkaround was like a good chance to meet up with old frens and chat. Only tagged one stranger the whole session though heh.

2nd one was the pacman-inspired game. Was pretty lost throughout this one though, not mentioning fretting over why our hands had to be tied with our partner's , and why mine didn't want hers tied with mine :p

3rd was where we had to have our legs tied together and then hop around and then throw newspaper into the container which, after gathering enough weight, 'd propel our house flag up into the air. This one was good heh thx Pris Lim for hopping arnd with me and helping squash paper for me to throw :)

Had prep for Onite thereafter. Gee why didn't we take pics of our costume ><

Onite itself was FUNNNN. There was dancing of cuz, i think neither Pris nor i knew what the Cha Cha move was all abt but heck it was fun :) Oh then had a switch of partners and danced for Jean for awhile and hey it oughta be such a relief for her lor, finally being able to spin properly :) See good partners help.

The rest of the programme was really funny as well! Must have spent lotsa time planning it, the ogls.

Went Mos burger for supper after that. Batch song & all was nice of cuz, but i'm starting to miss "Hand in Hand". RI batch of 06, u hear me!

Tuesday- Tuesday's the day full of lectures aiyoyoyoyo so many in a row bleah. Aiyo honestly i can't rmbr what happened on Tuesday!!I probably went back and hit the gym though.

Wednesday- Had only history at 3rd block which i dun take, which means free except for CCA fest in the afternoon. Joined Henry to play badminton and ended up finding his og so homely hahaha cuz had so many ppl i knew, like kian peng anwaar borray and especially fiq and chenz lol and the other peeps are frenly as well, ivan shuqi nicola alina darren. See. i know like half of the og lol.

Played bball with my civics class thereafter but not very good bonding session lah, bleah cuz not many play ball but weishan and ai qing actually thrashed me and HC >< aiyo give chance also cannot give until like that lah!

After CCA feste went with my adopted og again, played around then decided to do maths but the place was sooo windy. So ended up having a nice chat instead lol.

Thursday - Lectures ended early, went ri library to do maths and saw ben ong, junwei and walter there. Oh my, we nostalgic rafflesians.

Met up with my chess club successor viet for lunch and jiahong was there too. Nice seeing someone undertake the path i had just went through, with the vigour and enthusiasm to match as well as a good snr to outdo!

Planned to head right to the gym but it was pouring and i met nicola & shuqi so joined them, then went to their og and we borrowed stuff from council room to play. Nicola lost taboo badly and we had a nice time grilling her but hey i keep secrets k so what's said is confidential =)

Went to the gym in the late evening instead whee hardcore.

Friday- Played weiqi with ppl from my class but gee not fun!! haha ladies lets play wu zi qi instead. Oh yeah and there's a wu zi qi cca as well gee i'm so surprised!!

Haha its so funny when i went to Weiqi CCA 2 gals asked me, "do you have a brother? There's one year one who looks exactly like you!". I'm like, "um.. i'm year one" o.O

Crashed bridge but didn't learn much. Pet Pet u sooo gotta teach me!

At night was really bushed. Aiyo lack slp.

Oh and i think my abs are like getting covered by fat again. Haiz maybe its the diet, the reduction in exercise, the stress. And the increasing urge to munch away at snacks in response to stress.


ok now that finally all these's out, i'll have a good time looking over them tmrw.

tata~

Some chase their dreams; I better not be chasing dust

After 3 days of orientation, ought to be like blogging abt it but hey that can wait.

Oh gee i just read on jingna's blog that : "hansiong plans to study baduk at korea university...."

!!!

As what? An undergrad or insei? To get what? A Bachelor of Weiqi or a Professional 1dan cert?

geee HS faster reply me sms!

Ok while waiting might as well talk abt orientation. Its REALLY different from sec sch one. Not that i expected it to be the same. But then again, you don't really feel the difference until you feel the difference.

First day was good. Get to know ppl and all. Ya lah. What else do u do during orientation lol.

2nd day onwards starting to feel out of sorts heh. I dunno why, maybe its the sore throat. But its probably more than that, since i (uncharacteristically, of course, or i'd be dead by now) added the wrong weights when i did bench press and ended up doing a set with unequal weights on each side! lucky the difference was only 1.25kg, or i'll be blogging from hospital =/

Had ki test as well. Sure get in lah. I like the teachers, feels like the kenneth low- mr yip type, philo teachers typical heh. I'll enjoy KI :D

3rd day went to civics class. Teacher's not bad, pretty funny. And 'll train my ears to listen to proper english heh, since he's ang moh and all. Oh the class has like more than 2x the number of girls compared to guys. Nothing wrong with that of cuz, just feels strange, since like, from all boys ---> mostly girls isn't exactly my idea of a smooth transition.

Just stoning further more after that. Just very tired. I got a feelings it could be the diet, cuz i'm really not used to having 3meals a day, spaced so far apart. Or maybe these are just excuses for my not wanting to talk. No idea, there's only 1 day of Orientation left anyway.

Woke up at 8 today, ate,read the papers, da pu for a while then decided to head back to sleep. My eyelids sure felt heavy. Then did sihuo after lunch and da pu. Xtra motivation today, cuz

1) I finally finished all the 1* questions in guanzipu marked thus far :)
2)There's a chance that i can play in the tourney against Japanese Association. More on that if i DO actually make the team.

oh HS finally replied. He's going to study weiqi in order to teach it in the future. IE, be an undergrad. Hahah don't worry hs if u improve lotsa u can go on to study for pro exams thereafter! surely they have provisions for foreign players?

gogogo!!


Hahahaha. Its a nice idea persuing a passion.

But will it make a good career?

I've got no idea.

happy

Cuz i just beat a 5d.

Was feeling sleepy before that during dinner, and before that when doing sihuo and dapu, and before that when showering and cutting hair and shopping, after gymming.

Was sleepy when i won.

and WIDE AWAKE,

when i realised he's 5dan.